Big Rob

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im not a racist
i mean i live in a world
filled with acceptable slurs
and unspoken stereotypes
but i am not a racist
there is no hate for color
or lack there of
no underlying resentment
for people different from me
because i am not a racist
i admit to using terms
with racist undertones
i have nigger rigged a switch
or indian given a gift
but i am not a racist
i sit and see people all around me
doing and saying things that make me cringe
that seem wrong to me in the pit of my stomach
that make me see them in a new light
a light tinted with the ugly green of racism
and i wonder if they only know no better
or if they hate
and if they hate
then why
i hear words coming out of my mouth and i wonder
why did i say that?
thats not right...
so i change them to words that insult my own race
i use mexican american ingenuity
or i say "wassap messkin"
and i think wow
have i lost my dignity?
or just my soul?
i see people that rage against ism's
against race - ism
against sex - ism
but their hate for ism's has done nothing
but create more hate
create reverse ism's
turned these suffering souls into white haters and men haters
created more indignity and complication
in an allready too complicated world
and i think that maybe these people
dont make things better after all
that the world doesnt get any better
untill we learn to live without hate
or hate for hate
and i keep telling myself that
i am not a racist.

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open minds are like sand dollars - they do exist but finding one in tact is never easy. water erodes them, nature breaks them, and every time i get a chance, I SMASH THE HELL OUT OF THEM WITH MY FOOT!!!

i have come to the groggy realization that my entire life is lived in the effort to avoid boredom...